It’s about 170 miles from Walsenburg, Colorado to Denver. The trip takes less than an hour in a helicopter. I know, because I was airlifted from the Spanish Peaks Medical Center outside of Walsenburg to St. Anthony’s Hospital in downtown Denver on June 18, 2010. Docs thought I’d had a stroke. Ultimately, they decided I hadn’t, but they aren’t sure just what was wrong with me.
Two months later, I am still fine, although perplexed about what exactly happened.
As I flew over Pueblo and Colorado Springs that clear June night, my main worry was that the cancer had returned in my brain—which is a common site of recurrence of hormone-negative breast cancer. I was amazingly tranquil about the possibility—I was ready to accept the inevitable. That was probably the Valium they had given me, though. To skip ahead, the cancer had not returned.
Yea! But what the what was going on here?
The reason we headed to the emergency room in Walsenburg earlier that evening was that I was extremely lightheaded, weak on one side, had trouble breathing, and felt like I was about to pass out. This had been coming on for more than an hour while I puttered around our mountain cabin trying to hydrate myself, thinking it was dehydration and trying to snack, thinking it might be a blood sugar issue, although I had no reason for concern about either problem.
Once I was hooked up to the machines that became part of my body for the next 20 hours, another symptom popped up: My blood pressure, which normally is low (110/65) shot into the danger zone (145/109).
I also wasn’t terribly articulate—I kept telling the doc in Walsenburg that I felt “weird” and, when he asked for specifics, I repeated my weirdness. He asked my occupation and, when I told him I was a retired journalism professor and a health writer, he seemed to think I should speak clearer than that.
Weird, huh?
The doc asked me to say “Mississippi” and I remember working hard to articulate, as though I were drunk. He then asked me to say “Four forty four fours.” I told him I never have been able to pronounce “r”s well, and that my brother used to tease me when I said “poach.”
“But there are no ‘r’s in poach,” he said.
Later, I realized I should have clarified that my brother teased me because I had been trying to say “porch.”
So he added that illogic to my weirdness and my physical symptoms and told me I needed to go to a stroke center and the closest was in Denver.
“We’ll helicoper you,” he said.
“Yikes,” I said.
The copter came from Pueblo with two excellent paramedics who strapped me onto a board and loaded me right next to the pilot. My feet were touching the front of the glass bubble. To my left was nothing but glass and sky; the pilot was to my right. I could see his GPS system showing us where we were and where we were headed.
Or, rather, I could have seen it if I’d had my glasses. I was blurry-eyed, though, because I could take nothing on board with me—not my purse, shoes, watch. The only possession I maintained was my underwear—and it, of course, was old and slightly tattered. I had been at a cabin in the wilderness and felt no need for fancy pants. Too bad. I was a stereotype—in the hospital with crummy undies.
I had multiple tests. A CAT scan in Walsenburg showed my brain was OK, but the doc worried that the machine was not precise enough and, if I were at risk of a stroke, he wanted to prevent it. In Denver I had a second scan, this one including the arteries in my neck. Then I had a brain MRI and an echocardiogram. All were normal.
At 2 a.m. I finally saw a doctor who told me he did not think I’d had a stroke, but that they wanted to keep me for observation because they didn’t know what the problem was. I was transferred from ER a hospital room where I fell happily asleep for an hour and a half—until a nurse came to draw my blood.
Meanwhile, my husband had driven up to Denver, stopping in Pueblo to pick up my sister, who I knew would keep him awake during the trip. They arrived pie-eyed from lack of sleep. My husband had had no dinner. He finally ate later in the morning, 16 hours after his last meal. My sister brought me a change of clothes, but my husband had the same work clothes he wore when he drove me to the hospital.
The neurologist finally visited in early afternoon and we talked about my medical history. I mentioned the breast cancer and he ordered a second MRI with a more precise reading, to see if the cancer had spread. It hadn’t.
As I said, “yea!” But I still had no idea what my problem was. Nor, apparently, did the doctors. The only out-of-whack reading in all my tests was a slightly low potassium level.
By 4 p.m. my blood pressure was back down to normal and the docs saw no more need for me to be hospitalized. The concluding diagnosis: a complex migraine. That sounds to me like a fallback position—better than saying, “We have no idea.” I did some research on complex migraines and remain unconvinced. I had only a slight headache—not migraine-level.
So, I was released and we headed back to our mountain cabin, subdued, concerned, and confused.
For several weeks afterward, I was leery of my health. As my husband and I hiked, I was haunted by the possibility that my head or my heart or my something would go out and—whap—I would die face down in a cow pie. I felt fine, though, and we intensified our hikes and I continued to feel fine.
I now have decided that I am, in fact, fine.
What happened? I will continue to ask that questions and, eventually, I might find an answer. Some speculations: I had fractured my arm three weeks before and the fracture contained some trapped blood. Had it come loose and moved toward my brain, but broken up before it did damage? The docs, though, seemed unconcerned about any connection between my symptoms and my arm.
Or another: We had been in town that day and I’d had more than my usual caffeine. I had three diet Cokes with lunch. Plus, I think the decaf coffee I ordered actually had caffeine—two shots. And the temperature was in the mid-90s. Could I have had dehydration plus excess caffeine? Low potassium is one sign of dehydration.
Because my symptoms were classic ones for stroke, I think the docs looked for the obvious and did not evaluate the more esoteric issues. That appears to be another medical mystery for me to solve.
I am on the case.
The total bill for the little event is not in yet, but so far the costs are a bit over $22,000—and that does not include the helicopter. I have great insurance, which will cover most of it. I do wonder if I would have been given less treatment if I were less well insured. And if that might have led to actually finding what was wrong.
Still, I now know the cancer has not spread to my brain.
Yea.
Still, it really all was pretty weird.
